2017 Resolutions vs. Facebook Memories. A match.

I've always been amused by the daily "Memories" Facebook throws  at me first thing in the morning.  Funny shit.  Serious Shit.  Boring Shit.  Sad shit.  For example, melodramatic posts about being heart broken after my ex and I separated, or posts about my fascination with Amy Winehouse and understanding her pain.  In the voice of Trump:  "Sad."

This past month, I had not given my 2017 resolutions much thought.  I typically will sit down in advance and come up with a list of the many things I would like to accomplish, and then I select my top priorities to go on some form of artwork pasted on my fridge.  I didn't do that this year.  I don't know why, but I just could not find the inspiration to do it.  The holidays came and went and barely noticed them here. 

But on New Year's day, I did sit down and began to write a list of "resolutions" that would pop-up in my head throughout  the day.  Then today, January 2nd, FB point out a memory about me sitting down to do my 2016 goals.  I started to browse the list of other memories that had taken place on this date, and was both amused and disturbed by what I saw.  I saw some really funny shit.  I'm fucking hilarious.  I also saw some dark shit - "Girl, you dark!"  But, the one thing that stood out for me was that I saw posting that appeared to have been written yesterday.  How so?  In the fact that things were still the same.  Two, three years had passed, and I had allowed shit to remain the same.  Goals, dreams, ideas, thinking patterns... had stalled.  It really bothered me.  And it reminded me of a conversation I had had with my therapist in which I said to him "I don't want to wake up in my 50's and realize that my whole life was wasted at home with Netflix or on my smartphone."  Well, that sort of seems to be what has happened so far. 

I am going to change this.  And first step is to come up with a list of things that I would like to tackle this new year.  This is a preliminary list (technically the list I started on 1/1), in no particular order and I am certain that it will grow and be edited in the coming days.

1. To invest in myself (spiritually, emotionally, physically and financially)
2. To stop taking shit people say too seriously
3. Start running again
4. Sober 2017
5. To reconnect with my family
6. To stay off Scruff
7. To read more
8. To write more
9. To spend less time on FB and phone
10. To give Love a chance
11. To believe in me.
12. To accept the fact that people are selfish and that is okay; it's not personal
13. To be selfish, because it's okay.
14. To learn more and further my career. 
15. Travel, travel, travel, travel. 
16. To paint the walls of the house
17. To Plant shit.
18. To stop being self destructive.
19. To be thankful and acknowledge my blessings
20. Me.

And, so with that, I close this out.  All of my goals are achievable; most of them are simply changing engrained behaviors, and this can be hard to change - but the first step is to recognize that there is work to be done. 

I wish you a great year!  And I encourage you to sit down and come up with a list of the things you want to accomplish in the next 12 months.

Much love,

Me.